Janus' Husband: Living with a bipolar husband (janushusband) wrote in bipolar_so,
Janus' Husband: Living with a bipolar husband
janushusband
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Too much...

Continuing in the vein of anger and continuous self loathing, suicidal thoughts and anger that he has maintained now for over a year, my boyfriend says he feels angry at me and his mother because we force him to stay alive. He crashed into sheer anger and said he would not pack anymore, that someone had to do it. Then he got angrier and said he would stay up all night and pack the whole house. I told him he would not do this and this only got him angrier.

He regressed to his angry child tantrum-throwing self, immobile with a bulldog grimace in his face and repeating that he was a genetic failure,  that he was destined to suck and never accomplish anything. He basked with pleasure into an orgy of hatred and self-loathing just like the old days. He negligently forgot to refill his night meds and went two days without them. Tonight was the first night he's retaken it. He had another angry outburst yesterday as well. 

He treats me like his punching bag, and then when I become angry in response he says I am belittling him! I react angrily now because whenever I have tried to be gentle and supportive all I have ever gotten is a snap or worse. I no longer have the desire to lay my neck out there so he can bite me because he feels the world is against him.

He does nothing that his therapist tells him: he never sits down to write his book, finding a thousand and one reasons not to do it, he doesn't employ whatever calming methods she has given him. He does nothing to fight thoughts of anger and self deprecation when they first appear, he makes no effort in the slightest and instead rolls around in them like a pig in a sty.

How bad is it that today I took an opportunity to help a classmate of mine with some project details, specially because that delayed my homecoming by at least an hour and granted me that extra hour of respite?

I enjoyed my drive up and down the highway without him, because I knew I would nor be assaulted by his aggressive mood changes and self-loathing and recriminations. For that stretch if road I fantasized I had a partner who loved me and showed me it by being tender, caring, loving, understanding and supportive, not an emotional black hole that ate away from my inside out. The way he used to bebefore this crisis hit a year ago and completely changed the man I have loved for five years, to such a dgree that I don't know if I'll ever see him again... 
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you sound healthy, pissed off and clear headed.
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Oh my God, I'm so glad to tell everyone the real thing that happen to me...My name is EMILIANO BABARAH. If i refuse to share this testimony it means i am selfish to my self and to people i love so much whom might have similar problems, March 16th about something 7:23pm after taken our dinner my husband got crazy started calling a lady name Melisa I love you, i was so mad and started crying like a baby...then my husband left home for the idiot called Melisa, and never return back home then i believed when he uthen nderstand his self he will surly come back to apology, but instead he left me So i complained to my friend she told me she was having such problems in her marriage until she was introduce to DR ORIOMON who specializes in bringing back broken homes and broken marriages DR ORIOMON cast a spell for me in May 4th surprisingly my husband came home May 6th apologizing that i should forgive him that it will never happen again, i was so glad and gave the thanks to DR ORIOMON who save my marriage, if you are having similar problem you can contact him and His email address is (oriomonspiritualtemple@yahoo.com) you can still save your marriage if u really love your husband.

Thanks EMILIANO BABARAH_USA
i want to express how grateful i am, because i finally got what i have been looking for. My husband left me and our kids i have tried all my possible best to reach him but is like every time i tried, i am making things worst for myself. But thank the God that lead me to DR OYE of ABUYE SPELL TEMPLE, he helped me to restore the love my husband had for me back within 3days of me contacting him. he came back just as DR OYE told me, he will make him come back. if you are in situation like this kindly contact DR OYE on his email abuyespelltemple@gmail.com
i want to express how grateful i am, because i finally got what i have been looking for. My husband left me and our kids i have tried all my possible best to reach him but is like every time i tried, i am making things worst for myself. But thank the God that lead me to DR OYE of ABUYE SPELL TEMPLE, he helped me to restore the love my husband had for me back within 3days of me contacting him. he came back just as DR OYE told me, he will make him come back. if you are in situation like this kindly contact DR OYE on his email abuyespelltemple@gmail.com